Anxiety

My days at home with Baby O are coming to an end. Come Monday we will both be going to school.As the day approaches I find myself with a knot in my stomach and a lump in my throat. I can't believe my maternity leave is over. I know some women say that they could never be stay at home moms due to the lack of adult interaction, I can honestly say I would be over the moon if I could freeze this moment in time. I would love nothing more than to be at home with Owen all day everyday. I am an emotional wreck and I have found myself awake at night trying to make time slow down. (it is not working and I am only exhausted as a result) 

So what do I do when insomnia sets in? I Pray...

"Lord Jesus please please please let my baby have a happy first day of daycare and fill him with a peace and a calmness and let him know that I love him more than he could ever know.  Please God fill his heart and soul with comfort and love and let him always know that his mommy's love is always with him even when I can't physically be,  because I will always be back for him!"

1 Peter 5:7

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

I am constantly praying for Owen, but God showed me through my desperate prayers that I need to stop my worrying and trust that He will fill MY heart with a peace and a calmness.  I need to know that God loves me and my baby more than either one of us could ever know.  I need to find my comfort in the fact that God will be there watching over my son, who is His creation... not mine...when I can't be there. AND I need to cast all my anxiety and worries on Him.

Deep stuff right!

So from this moment forward, I wipe away my tears, put my big girl panties on, and I say... "It's gonna be okay. We will be okay."